so i just read this amazing poem my cousin wrote and it made me think of Qynn, not exactly quite sure why, but I'm sure you will find some of her in this poem. Its beautifully written. I know we haven't really been close friends at all, but you always stuck out in the crowd whether you liked it or not and i noticed. Miss seeing you around Q!
"Life in a Second"
To live life in a second,
to remember every kiss.
The moments quickly passing
forever losing all their bliss.
The thoughts keep running over,
your memory must decide
if every thing you wanted
was everything you wanted to hide.
Every feeling rushes through you;
not a single ever lost.
The regrets will make you question,
"Did I ever count the cost?"
Painted memories in your eyelids
keep you staring when you blink.
Shattered dreams are all around you,
and you never stop to think.
Every meaning to existence
keeps you thirsty, wanting more.
But you'll never find the answer
when you hide behind that door.
Broken trust and lost affection
only scatter every thought.
Leaving anger and confusion
only causing things to rot.
You may feel so lost and frozen,
all ambitions now are dead.
but this is only life in a second,
you haven't begun to look ahead.
You can only hope that life
will get where you want to go.
But you'll never find the answer,
and you'll never truly know.
Not a thing will seem so simple;
nothing every really does.
And even though you may not want to
you'll remember how it was.
Every truth that you had discovered;
every moment in the past.
Maybe someday you will find it again.
and life in a second won't seem so fast.
~Kyle Torni (my cousin)
I don’t know where to post something like this; hope it’s fine here.
It has taken me a long time to come to this site. I guess I’m trying to deal with it by not dealing with it. I think about you all the time, Qynn, every day. I have dreams with you in them. It’s 3am Sunday and I can’t sleep. So much stuff going on lately with school and other things. I want to call you and talk about everything and take a ride to the casino. I guess I’m sort of seeing someone now, again, but I think he is a pretty good guy; taking it really slow this time. I want you to meet him so I can get your approval! He will be up with me for the Snow-go-bye, I think it is going to be a fun weekend.
I got a new dog, yeah I’m “smart.” Her name is Madelyn Marie (Maddie for short). Her and Mac are quite the handful, but my joy as well. She will stay a little dog; probably will not get bigger than 12lbs. It is funny watching a big pit bull get beat up by a small 5lb puppy.
I think school is going better this semester also, not as many hard classes this time. I’m pumped for this spring class I’m going to take. It’s a Wolf Management class where they teach us all about wolf management, as if I don’t already know, but it will be a good class to have on a resume. I’ll probably end up taking over the class because I am so experienced with this type of stuff, LoL. I’m also going to plan a trip to go back to Isle Royle for a vacation this summer. It is so beautiful and untouched there. I’m excited about that.
I’m sorry I haven’t been on here or even been back in Ontonagon for a while. I try to avoid the situation, though I know that isn’t a good thing to do either. I want to see Paeton and you’re family, I just don’t know how. It’s still very hard.
I remember Christmas; my mother gave me the most beautiful gift. It’s a heart necklace with this poem
“When You Only Saw One Set of Footprints, It Was Then That I Carried You”
I wear it everyday. My mother had on the box “To Ashley, From Qynn” on it. Ma always find’s a way to make things special.
I want you to know that I think about you all the time. I love & Miss you Qynn, so much.
With all my love,
Ashley Baker
Friend of grandparents, our love & thoughts are with you and Quinns Parents,as we know that but as for the grace of god go I. Our love blessings & love are with you. Dick & Sharon Wells Anglers Cove West .
