I remember when I came up to Ontonagon with my mom and dad. I was about 5 years old and I brought up all my Polly Pockets and Qynnie and I played with them. It was really good to know that I had a great friend who was just like a sister to me! I think of Qynnie all the time and I miss her more than anything in the world!
Qynn,
It was 3 years ago yesterday that you became an angel and it is still very hard for everyone. I remember getting the call and it was like I couldn't move, just a gut wrenching feeling.
Dennis is doing well, he is living close to Jay and I in Ishpeming. He seems to be doing well although I'm sure he still misses you like crazy.
There isn't a day that passes where I don't think of you and what a wonderful person we lost. No one could ever forget you. Even though you've gone on, everyone still keeps you close to them! We all miss you!!
Three years and at times your loss feels like yesterday. I have always been certain that when you met your "maker" he said" Qynn Marie, what were you thinking". I still believe there is a purpose for what happens in life, it does not always seem fair, nor do we always understand, but we have to draw strength from lifes experiences and more on. When I think of you and the saddness wants to creep in, I just reach into my pocket of memories and grab a handful. I remember my granddaughter when she was little and sat on her grandpa's knee. I remember the young girl with hair of many colors that framed her beautiful face. I remember the young women that was not given the time to really enjoy being a mother, but left behind a beautiful little girl that has so much of her mothers ways. You will never be forgotten Qynn. You left your mark on all of us. You were unique. You are forever in my heart.
3 years ago today God called you up as an angel and sent one here to me. It was so hard for Alyssa losing you and sitting in the hospital with me while I had Kayle. I know that you are watching over her, as well as your family everday Qynn, and we all miss you terribly. Today of all days they need you the most, it never gets any easier. This is so hard for me to write as I sit here and think of all the silly things you and my sister did together, and that it was too soon for a free spirit like you to leave. We miss you Qynn.
Love,
Corrie
Qynnie,
2 weeks ago while your mom was shopping for a book for me to read while deer hunting, a total stranger came up and told her to buy a book called "The Shack", and said it was really good. So she gave it to me and I started reading it and realized it was about how a father was dealing with the loss of his daughter, at first I couldn't read it, but then I thought,maybe I was meant to read it,what's the chance that a total stranger would recommend a book about that. So I read it, and it really hit me hard, I spent most of my reading wiping away my tears, but it also made me realize that maybe part of my problem getting through this is, I've been mad, mad that you didn't stay at camp,mad that you were drinking,mad that you didn't stay at your house after your mom brought you home, and I'm SORRY! and I forgive you for doing all of it. Does this mean that I'm not sad anymore, absolutely not, there's a big hole in my heart that I don't know if it will ever heal, but I got to start somewhere, I'm so tired of being sad.I miss you so much!!, and I love you more than ever, but Thank You for sending the person with the book, I will try my best to move on, if not for me, but for your Mom and brother and the grandkids,I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!!!
