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Happy Birthday Sweet heart!!, It's been a while since I've wrote anything, fractly , it's very hard for me to do it, I miss you soooo much, it breaks my heart everytime I try. this last year has gone by so fast, it seems like yesterday when you left us, I just wish I had a chance to say good bye. Paeton's doing great, she's so smart, we talk about you to her all the time so there will be no doubt that she will know her mother, and you were such a good mother too, even though it was for such a short time, you did a wonderful job, your mom and I are so proud of you.
Please honey ,know that we love you so much, and keep looking down on us to help us get through this.
Hey baby girl Happy Birthday you would of been 22 today. I still can remember the first day that you came into our lives, your dad and brother were so proud, ofcourse all we heard from your brother was that is my baby and you were until you started getting around then you were in his way.but you were still his baby. I watched you grow up into your dad's little princess into a wonderful young lady then into a wonderful mom.
Even when you were younger i knew that you were going to be unique just by the way you dressed back then. You would put your leggins on with a turtleneck and then your dads sweatshirt (it went down to your knees and we had to roll the sleeves way up) but you did look cute. I look at all you pictures growing up and the way you would stand would say I like myself. There was a time when you started dating (man was that scary) some of the guys you went out with found aways to break that spirit of yours. Then when that wonderful little girl was born you had a bright light in your eyes again then you met Dennis that light shined bigger and brighter like it use to. You found the love you were looking for and deserved. You always lived your life to the fulliest and I pray that in heaven you are doing the same and that young beautiful smile that I miss so much is still shinning.
There will not be a day that goes by that I will not think of you or miss you something terrible. I am doing my best to raise Paets how you would like her to be. Ofcouse she is my granddaughter so I will spoil her just as I am with Jamis and will with the new baby thats just what grandparents do.
Just to let you know Dennis is still coming over everyday and spending time with Paets he loves that little girl, you pick a great guy honey we love him lots and respect him. Although he thinks that his deer is bigger than mine and Josh's even though it was only a 7 pointer, but you know men they cant let a girl beat them, at Christmas your brother and Dennis had to score them to see if Josh's was bigger than mine ofcourse Dennis didnt have his hear to score but he knows it is bigger point wise (hes so funny). Even still it was fun to watch the two of them.
Michelle is getting a little pot belly on her. I hope that if they have a girl her eyes are like Shelly's she has the most amazing eyes. Paets just adors her. Everyday she talks to Jamis on the phone I hope that they stay close.
Well sweetie I am starting to ramble again because I dont want to stop cause this is all I have to hang on to is this site then I feel like I am talking to you like we use to do all the time.
I miss you and I will make sure that Paets growes up to make you proud she is so smart.
Love you Mom
Merry Christmas Qynnie.... I'd like to believe that on this special day the angels do indeed sing, and that you are one of them. I'd like to believe that by some magic you can sense how much your family loves and misses you. Paeton is such a smart little girl - have no fear, she will forever know who her mommy is. Every day I wish for a magic power that will ease the pain with your mom, dad, Josh, & Dennis. Perhaps in time. I truely hope that Josh & Michelle have a little girl. The name "Faith Qynn" is a beautiful tribute to you, and speaks of the love your brother feels for you. If it is a little boy, it may be a little disappointing, but he will be brought into a wonderful loving family. When I feel sad, I try to think of funny things you might do, like crazy hair-do's on the pretty girl angels. Silly thoughts I know, but a little humor softens the rough edges of sad memories. Sending you much love, thinking of you often, and always loving the granddaughter I knew, and the granddaughter I will always miss. Peace be with you Qynnie.
Well honey another Christmas came and went with out you man does that seem strange, I keep waiting to see you walk in the door with Paets and Dennis and it doesnt happen. I thought that maybe this year it would be different but I guess not.
I had a great time with you brother and Michelle took Jamis sledding (hes not to sure about that just yet) God Qynnie I can see you and your brother so much in him. Somedays I see Michelle's beautiful eyes and then the next your brothers. Michelle is starting to show now, friday she is going to find out what sex the baby is cant wait when I find out I will let you know if we are going to have a Faith Qynn or a Jonathon Jeremy not sure about the boys name but that is what it is for now.
Your dad held up pretty good until Paets open a present from you grandma wawa it was a glow dome with an angle and Paeton looked at it and said mama
She really miss you.
I miss how you and your brother and Michelle would always check out the presents and try and guess what you were getting they still are caring on with that tradition.
Didnt get any snow for Chirstmas( well a trace) so could you working on getting us some more soooooooooooon.
I love you so much and miss you just as much.
Merry Christmas my little angel.
Love mom
Hey Sweetie, Today is your dads birthday and boy does he miss you. He went hunting, I dont think that his heart is really in it but I think he feels like he is closer to you when he goes. I know the feeling I wear your sweaters hopeing that your sent might be on them. Guess what your brother and Michelle just bought there first house it is real nice. It was a good deal I just worry about money and with the new baby coming its not going to get easier, but he is just like your dad he wont let anything happen to his family (he is a good man) both you and Josh got alot of your dads wonderful trates.
Honey you know how your dad is this time of year well he could use a big hug from you in the worst way. I am scared for him.
Paets had her 2 year check up and she got an A+ from the doctor. He said that she is way ahead in her talking. Man she is alot like you honey so your dads wish came true. We thank God for her everyday she keeps us alive.( her and Jamis) it is so nice to have little ones around.
Auntie Cheryl got Paets some puppets for her birthday boy does she love them, we asked her what there names were and she always says moma breaks my heart although she did name one wienerdog.
I want to keep writing but I know I will never stop but its getting hard to see through the tear. So I will say so long for now Qynnie and I love more than life its self.
I hope that you have found peace and watch over your dad, brother and dennis.
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