Hey Sweetheart,
It has taken me this long to write you, I am sorry. I sat down last month and wrote you a letter(god how i miss you) I miss our talks we had, our shopping trips, our late night walks and just seeing your beautiful face. Took Paets to the doctor last week for her 19 month check up. She weights 33lbs and is over 30inches. Dr could not believe how well she talks I said she is her mothers daughter. You should see her with your cell phone she walks around the house talking like crazy (boy she is so much you ). Your brother got married on the 30th of June I know that had to be hard for him with you not there. I think he is happy. Jamis is getting so big the other day I was looking at pics of you and Paeton looked at one of you in a clothes basket and said Jamis, honey he has a lot of you in him mostly your eyes.
Your dad is still having a hard time we both are people keep telling us that it will get easy as time goes by but I can't see that happening. God this is one of thoses times I wish we could have our late night talks. Your dad goes out to the property every morning after we get done cleaning and then he goes out at night, he hates being here I feel the same way. I understand why he does it so i tell him to go ahead.
Your little girl keeps us hoping she is so funny. It is almost like she knows we are having a bad day and she does something to make us laugh. I try real hard not to cry in front of her because I do not want her to ever feel my hurt.
Kristen and Kari made a beautiful scrap book of you and I take it out and look at quite often, Paets looks at it too. She looks at your baby pics and say Paeton and then she looks at all the others and she says Mama and it breaks my heart so.
Guess what she loves to dance just like you, your dad want to put her in dance class.
Well honey I think I have ranted enough its just my way of talking to you.
God I hope you know how much your dad and I love you and miss you so much
hugs and kisses until we see each other again
Mom
Hey Qynn. You probably don't remember me, but I went to elementary school with you before you moved up north. We were best friends, inseparable. You would come over and we would attempt to do gymnastics in my parents' living room. You were so much fun. When you told me that you were moving, I was devistated. I didn't want to lose my best friend. When you left Allegan, I thought about you occiasionally and wondered what you were doing in your life and prayed you were happy. Just this past month, I thought about trying to get in contact with you. This is when I found out you passed away. I wish I could have got to know you better. You seemed so full of life! I know someday, I will get to meet you again Qynn. Thanks for being a part of my life at such a young age. I will never forget the times we shared.
Hey Qynn; It's been a little over 6 months. I'm still hurting, hurting for me, your Mom, Dad, Josh, Dennis and that one I call Gabby. Yesterday a tech came to change our computer system and asked about the baby in the tutu picture on my desk. I said that is Paeton Marie, that picture there is her mom, my niece. My niece, as I said those words, tears came. I tryed to control them but I had to leave my desk. One of my co-workers explained that you passed way. I came back and talked about you and Dennis and Paeton. The tech was sad for the family, but got the impression of what a wonderful spitfire you are. I miss talking to you and bugging you. Oh, your crazy cousins are moving to South Carolina real soon. Keep an eye on them for me. Love you, and miss you so much. Here's a big hug from your crazy Aunt.
Hi honey, sorry it took so long to write but everytime I think about the stuff I want to write I start crying. Well baby its been 4 months and counting and it hasn't got any easier yet. Paeton is the only thing holding my shit together and I thank you for her. Shania turned 21 this weekend and I gave her all the stuff you bought for your party. She made sure she would have made you proud.
Well honey there really isn't any memory that really sticks out because every minute of the 9 months we were together was the best time of my life. I miss saying I love you every morning I get up, I miss your dimples, I miss your smart ass comments even. but most of all I miss seeing your smile everytime you seen Paeton. You were such a good mother baby. For not having any patience at all you sure had them when it came to your little girl. It didn't matter if she woke us up 10 times a night you would jump right out of bed and see what was the matter. You were a great Mom and you can be sure Paeton will know about it.
I am so happy you talked me into going christmas shopping with you. Besides you getting mad at me for not asking for directions it was a great time because I was with you. I will cherish that weekend and every other moment I spent with you because it was the happiest I have ever been in my Life. I love you so much Qynnie and I always will, no one will ever compare to you Baby.
I love you and miss you lots
Dennis
