Qynn,
It is so hard to believe it has been four months....you are on our minds and in our hearts every day! What a blessing for us all and especially for your Mom and Dad, to have precious Paeton. You will always live on through her.
Thinking of you today, I was reminded of a quote from my favorite book "The Velveteen Rabbit"
"What is REAL.?" asked the Rabbit one day to the Skin Horse. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"
"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."
"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.
"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."
"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"
"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand. Once you are Real, it last for always".
Loving you always,
Aunt Sue, Uncle Ken & Kari
I remember the icy, wintry drive to Bath to see Baby Qynn! She was absolutely beautiful, of course. Brother Josh was standing right there, making sure no harm came to HIS sister! He was ever the big, protective brother.
I remember all the fun times at Don and Kathy's home at Dumont Lake. I loved going there and spending time with both the kids. One day, at a football game for Josh, Kathy told me Qynn was "in love" - with Josh's peewee football coach, Ben. I, of course, poo-pooed the idea - she was much too young! Then Ben came out on the field - and Qynn shone like the sun! Never was a girl - big or little - so in love!!
When it came time for the family to move to the U.P., Qynn dug in her heels - she absolutely did NOT want to go - how would Ben find her way up north?
Qynn always said she did NOT like the U.P., but when the opportunity came to move back downstate, she didn't like it and quickly returned to her home in the north!!
I remember days on the beach behind the motel with both kids - what fun I had! I don't know if they did or not - but I sure did! I remember the track meets, ice skating, graduation and her baby shower. Paeton was a miniature replica of her Mom. And is the same darling pixie. Qynn was so proud of being Paeton's mom and she was a good mom! I was so proud of her and very, very proud of her spirit.
One of my favorite pictures of her is taken with Josh at his high school prom. Qynn's date had backed out at the last minute, but Josh took her as his date, along with his own date and the picture taken that night sits on the mantle at her folks place.
She left us much, much too soon and left a whole that will never fill, but I thank God every day for you. I love you so much, sweetie. Gramma Pat
Hey Qynner,
last night our baby finally said AUNTIE!!! she has said everyone else's name in the house, (even the old dog) but she finally broke out my name.. she is gettin so big and beautiful, just like her mommy.. love you always , brittany
Hi Qynn. I was just at the casino this past Friday. I thought about playing blackjack but just couldn't. I need you to coach me so I don't lose all my money! Anyways, I went and played Holdem instead and lost my money there! Go figure!
I am so excited for Paeton's poker run! I made a facebook event of it and hoping to get a handful of people I know here to come enjoy the activities. Going to be a good time, I know it!
Remember that time we went snowmobiling and ended up in Ewen! I froze my butt off. I really can't take the winter conditions well...My limbs freeze faster than anyone I think. It was quite the interesting ride.
I have your pictures by my bedside and in my car. I think about you everyday. I love and miss you so much! I know you are watching over us. XOXO!
Qynnie,
There is not a day that goes by that I dont think of you. I spend many nights awake and crying just knowing that your gone. Then all the memories I have with you race through my head and I cant help but to smile or laugh. There is nothing I can say, that people do not already know about you. You were an amazing person, and you still are. Just because I cant see or touch you, I know you are with us and watching over all of us everyday. Some of the best memories I have, are with you. I find myself laughing peroidically throughout the day just because I think of something silly that we have done. Every time I watch the Lakers play I think of me and you running around in our Koby Bryants jerseys, and how we would always say that he is in love with us but he just doesnt know it yet. There are so many little things that remind me of you every day. Some days it is so hard to deal with you being gone, but there are also many days that I think of how lucky I was to have you as my friend. I also remember when you were pregnant and we went out to camp and there was no toilet there so every 10 minutes we would go out side so you could go to the bathroom. The grass was up to our thighs and we had to truck it all the way through to a shed so you could hold on to it. When Stosh and I came to the hospital the day you had Paeton, I thought you would be laying in the bed and tired. But what was I thinking...haha its you. When I got there you were walking around in your hospital robe, and you looked great!!! You were smiling and you were so proud of Paeton. I knew she would be beauitful, look who her mom is!! Also what makes me laugh from time to time is when I think of how "clean" we used to keep our rooms. lol My mom always teased us that we must have had the same decorater and we would tell her that we fly him up here from Paris. There are so many good memories with you, and thats what keeps me going. I miss you Qynnie, but I know everything will be ok. You are doing great, and god needed you and had a greater plan. We will see each other again some day!!! I will NEVER forget you....
